Ugh. Sucky day as usual.

/you dont have to read this I just want to rant to myself kk/

Anyway,
where have I been, why havent I been on MSN/AIM/any type of fun thing?

Cause all I do is spend my freaking whole summer, trying to perfect(ITS SO NOT PERFECT) a STORY ASSIGNMENT THAT WAS A FINAL IN MY WRITING CLASS. AND SCHOOL IS -OVER-, I;M TRANSFERRING, SO WHY WOULD IT MATTER


Ugh. I seriously hate writing now. Sure, I did it plenty during the school year, but come on. Time flys by freaking faster than when I'm drawing. I haven't even been able to practice for this DAMN comic for the past 3 days, because the crappy story kept me occupied. I just can't focus. I put on my favorite songs, and run around the house because I'm a healthy person and i have too much energy. I cant sit around all day even though I do half of the time.

God this summer sucks.

Oh and if your one of those people who are like "guehguehjg ew another journal complaining about this lemme leave then go right because it's a rant to MYSELF D: Why do they call it a journal then? D:
I'm just so sick of having a boring summer <__< BUT Most of all I'm REALLY sick of this site. All I do is hit F5F5F5 EVERY 5 SECONDS hoping to reply to comments/see new art. At least the tutorials help me...

But other than tutorials and commenting/criting art/talking with a few people i know..Seriously I don;t know how much longer I can put up with this.

tl;dr XDDDD

Anyway, I woke up reallly early today to make up for sleeping late the past week. I woke up around 8:30 to finish the final draft, then I crammed the whole day on KLONDIKE BARS AND COFFE to start scripting. (With actions and ""THINGS TO INCLUDE"" At the end of every page :U

And the worst part is

okay, 34 page story.

7 pages into scripting = ....27 pages of the comic. oh my god

just...just multiply that by 3. Plus 100 lbs of me breaking my a** off on everypage = dead starry for summer.

yes I'm going to die.

okay maybe I shouldnt complain that much :U It's not like it's going to get a grade slapped on it with red ink; But

I just feel like it's all going to go to waste.

SO THATS WHY

If I feel like I waste my effort on this site, I;m just not going to post it here. If I really have to, I will freaking study all night and make a site for my comic instead :U Cause I'm used to cram studying and it's FUN. Yes I really will kill myself all night on a website believe me I do many things SIMILAR to that

oh and my mom is tryin to make me go on vacation with her.

I /want/ to go but CANT BECAUSE I HAVE TO KILL MYSELF WORKING ON PROJECTS ALL SUMMER

Man I never have fun anymore :U I've only been swimming once this whole summer ;_; The freaking beach here keeps getting dead bodies washed up on it; and I don't want to be swimming and have one touch me..oh god I will die XDDDD

But yeah :U I shouldn't lose faith like this; everyone in real life knows I'm very strong and determined to finish whatever project gets thrown at me.

But sometimes I wonder if I'm ready to handle throwing myself at this one...

And believe me, I REALLY REALLY want to make this comic. And I want to make it the best thing in my gallery. I don't want to rush it because then it will be crappy and I'll regret it at school and stuff. But then I want to start it, because I think of the little time I'll have in school and then I'll be upset that I cant work on it. So it;s like a now or never situation to put my effort into my free time @ summer.


/End rant/ *back to scripting/studying* I'm going to lose it Okay...I just got to keep climbing this rough hill until i reach the top

-this is almost worse than studying for regents exams*